I felt especially empty last night... Parts of me did not want to go home because it made me think about my ex... What is this stage called? Extreme withdrawal?
When I see him still needing help, it's so hard for someone who still cares for him watch him from afar. Was it really the right move to step out of his life instead of guiding him through it? His insecurities, his fears... What could I have done for him? I know he secretly wants to finally call a place home, but he flees once he has something good in front of him. Are my prayers for him not strong enough? I already gave up my favorite pasttime in order to have a stronger prayer for him...
It pains my heart trying to move on... Even when I'm with another guy, I look like I'm okay on the outside, but I really am not.
Lord, please heal my broken heart... Please heal his broken past... Please heal us sinful and broken people.
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