Day 2

One of my good friends introduced me to blogging to keep my mind off things... I think I'll continue doing this until I'm better.. :) Knowing me... I'll want to talk to him after a week of separation... That's what happened last time right?

Last night... I had the weirdest phase where I tricked myself into thinking that I was happy that we've broken up... Who am I trying to kid?? I know things don't work that way... Especially... not with me...

I know he has already moved on... He's that type to pick up really fast... So why can't I move on myself?? All the mental anguish he put me through?? Do I really want to go back to that again??

Despite how I may feel... I miss him... I hope he's still keeping his dream alive and working towards getting into a Boston school...

Oppa... Do you know I miss you? I know you've moved on... Or trying to move on, but I'm still here.. secretly waiting for that one day we'll meet again.

All I can do now is pray... Pray that he will be okay. Pray that he will see God in his life one day...

I miss you dearly... Please be okay.


EDIT:
So he messaged me today... I'm glad he did because I was about to drive myself crazy missing him... Yes, we've broken up, but I'm glad he acknowledges the e-mail I wrote him... I really tried to tell him everything I felt during our time together..even then.. I know I didn't write down everything that I felt.

It worries me... what he told me today...  I thought he was doing really well in class... being ahead of the game... but I realized... he's started to procrastinate... Will he be able to get the grades he needs to transfer here? All I can do is pray for him now... because I know if I go back and try to help him through it... he won't understand. As much as it hurts seeing him fall and walk this one on his own... I know he has to do this alone. Only then, will he get stronger.

Please Father.. look after him for me.

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