How is he doing? I see myself looking at the clock and trying to guess what he could be doing at this hour.
Without someone there to keep him in line... will he give up trying to study? I don't want him to do that... But all I can do now is watch from the sideline...
Don't settle oppa.. Keep striving forward! What you're doing with the procrastination is settling for less! School is like this... I know you're tired every night and think that if you are able to turn whatever work you come up with before deadline is fine, but it's not! How are you going to study in BC/BU?? The classes are tons harder!
Don't settle for less... Please... I'm not there to tell you that anymore...
EDIT: Does using OKC again help you forget me? Oppa... stop playing around. You have to study!! Why are you placing your time in finding girls when you have to study and write up reports?? Wasn't that the reason why you crammed your essay on Tuesday? Why do you do this to yourself, huh? Why do you not see what I see??
...why did you walk away from me? On the outside.. it might have looked like I ended it... but all the actions you've done... were the reason why we're not together anymore... The fact that you stopped keeping your word... the fact that you stopped answering my texts... the fact that you grew accustomed to ignoring me... the fact that you stopped trying for us... the fact that you stopped fighting for us... the fact that you logged on okc again when we were still together... that last reason was the determining factor to why I wrote the e-mail that I wrote...
You know I have my insecurities with you, so why couldn't you let me have my way and just look only at me?? Why did your heart have to stray away from me?? You've told me that the girls you talked to on okc were just girls to pass the time during the time you weren't in school... so why did you log on Sunday when we were still together? You PROMISED you wouldn't log on again!! You PROMISED me that!! Is it that hard to keep your promises with your girlfriend?? Am I actually the girl you used to pass the time with?
You've wondered why I didn't trust you? Put it all together and ask yourself if you've been faithful to me. If you've done all you could to reassure me that I'm your only girl... your only one...
Do you understand now why I asked you come back to me only if you have a wholesome heart to love me? It's because your heart was never with me... never mine... It was never wholesome, but half-assed. That's why you couldn't settle down with me... your heart still wants to play... and I really wasn't the type of girl you should have played with. My heart for you was pure... and I can guarantee it. I never looked at any other guy, but you. It's unfortunate that you didn't feel the same...
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